I was thinking that each new year is exactly like a big reset button on life. This is not just a whole new year it's a whole new decade. I am only three years away from being forty. I mostly think that is a good thing. Not a huge big deal. But it does make a person think. Well it makes me think. It makes me think of all the amazing opportunities I have. I no longer want to discern what I want to do with my life, I want to discern How to realize my hopes I have for myself. I want to write books for children. I want to travel the world on social justice Missions. I want to have my own pre-school classroom to teach. I have a lot of amazing ideas and dreams I want to make into realities. And I am feeling very good about living out those dreams in new and (as to date) un-realized ways.
Anyways tonight I'm praying. I live with Type II diabetes and am thankful how blessed I am to be healthy and happy. Two people in my life right now are not doing so well and are facing some pretty scary realities about living with this disease. So If you are inclined to pray hold the countless men and women and children living with chronic diseases in this world in prayer. It's not too big. Prayer holds a lot of love, enough for the world to heal.

There is a thing. It moves quickly and I can sometimes glimpse it but not ever catch it. Sometimes I'm sure it's the thought, I mean THE thought that will make everything else click into place. Other times it's just a illusion like floaters in the corner of my eyesight. Not real just teasing me and making me think there's something out here worth all this effort of seeking. It's just a thing. "A dream I'm told from days when I was young"