Today Sarahphim is Hmmmm. Not too good, not too bad just kinda hmmmm. A Hmmmm in my head kind of day. Hmmm about Church, Hmmm about communication, Hmmmm about what to eat for lunch. Hmmmm about what do I want to do this weekend. The only thing I'm really sure about is that Saturday after COTA there is a bunch of bands playing a the Mosaic to raise awareness about sexual trafficing of minors. I think. I was paying attention but I could not keep it all between my ears. But the music at Mosaic is for sure. At 7pm if any one else wants to come with me. The other thing I know I want to do this weekend is go to my parents house. I like going there. I get heathly well-balanced meals for free, I get talk with my folks, and they buy me chocloate milk to drink. Yes I suppose I could by it for myself but then there's the ohh it's too much sugar or too much moeny. It's sugarless and moneyless when they buy it. And it's very thoughtful that they think to do it every time I come to visit. What I do not know if I want to do is go to church. I love church. I love the people at my church. But something is not connecting and I don't know what it can be. So I think I will go and see if I cannot work through it. I think there are so many new things going on with my church that it's one of those times to just sit back and let it ride and hold onto my chips a little longer.
I was wondering about twiling. It's a fine art to twirl. Especially on blustery days like today. See you got first tilt your head back and then close your eyes and then slowly start to turn. The wind starts to push you one way and as you spin faster you start to push back at it another way. And then as your speed increases your hair gets caught up and swirls in your eyes. Your ears start to hear a rush like the sound of the ocean in a seashell. And just before you get too dizzy to stand and fall down you feel yourself start to lift off the ground and soar just for a split second before gravity reminds you there's no days off for him on planet earth. Just this past fall I got to see the Whirling Dervishes. And my first thought was huh. Look at them spinning. But then you watched and your spirit got caught up with their whirling and then it wasn't spinning at all but some wonderful wind blowing in your face and howling in your ear and your spirit is flying for real around your soul. So this wondering is like a dear abbey advise maybe. Take time to twirl. It'll do ya some good.
Sarahphim signing out
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